Thursday, 23 March 2017

My First Time At The Gym

The alarm goes. It's 6am. I'm so tempted to hit the snooze button but instead I find myself rolling out of bed and sliding myself into my clothes, made slightly easier by the fact it's already light outside. Before I can even begin to think I grab my bags, kiss my boyfriend goodbye and leave the house, all before half 6? Seems slightly surreal. Then, the anxiety starts. Will people be looking at me? What if I do something wrong? What if I look like a complete idiot? Should I just turn around? I can't remember how I felt on my first day of school but I imagine this to be pretty similar. I arrive. I'm so relieved to see the friendly face of my MD, we walk in together making idle chit chat and then it hits me. I'm at the gym for the very first time. A place that I've been paying a membership fee for the last 8 months but never actually managed to make it to. Until today.

I'm making my way towards what I can only imagine to be a room full of pain, worrying that people are going to stare at me as I walk through the door. I'm so tempted to just turn around. I find myself walking into an empty room full of gym equipment. What a relief, I can finally breathe. I'm the first one there!!

I begin my workout that I meticulously planned the night before so it at least looks like I know what I'm doing. My headphones are in, my music is on and I'm thinking about what the day ahead may bring. After my warm up on the rowing machine I get up and realise that the room has suddenly become packed and anxiety is setting in again! Were they watching me? Was I doing it right? What do they think of me? What do I look like?

I manage to shove the evil thoughts to the back of my mind and make my way over to the bike. I manage to cycle 5k in 10 minutes which I'm impressed with because Jesus those seats hurt your ass!! After my 5k I pluck up the courage to do some light weight training. It's so quiet in this part of the gym that I don't feel intimidated to lift more than I can manage!

Whilst I'm training out of the corner of my eye I clock an older gentleman who's significantly overweight and is training with a personal trainer. I have so much respect for this guy. He's a lot bigger than I am and I'm sure that he must have had the same reservations as I do about joining a gym but if he's here working out it's sure as hell I am going to be here 4/5 times a week too!

Before I know it 45 minutes have passed and I'm making my way back to the changing rooms. I still have an hour or so before I have to be in work(I literally work a 30 second walk away) so I decide to reward myself with 15 minutes in the Jacuzzi. Funny really, I have no reservations about getting into a swimsuit and walking into the pool area but I've been panicking my whole life about walking into a gym fully clothed?

After my cool down time I make my way back into the changing rooms feeling chilled and ready to tackle the day ahead. I'm greeted by a couple of my colleagues and a lovely lady who is walking around the changing rooms fully naked. I mean I'm not too sure if this is the norm in these places but I for one will definitely not be partaking. Hats off to the girl though she looked fantastic and obviously works hard for what she has got.

I've showered, dressed and I'm was making my way over to work. I've completed my first day at the gym and it really wasn't as scary as I had anticipated.

I've been back 3 times since and slowly my reservations are fading. The truth is everyone goes the gym for the same reason, to better themselves/become a healthier person. It doesn't matter how big, small or muscular you are, nobody cares. Everyone is too focused on their own workouts and goals to worry about yours. I worried for so long about the unnecessary things and looking back I now wish that I could have pushed my fears aside a long time ago. For me going to the gym in the morning gives me the boost I need for the day ahead and it's going to help me in my journey to lose the weight I need to. I never thought I would say this but I'm actually enjoying it and the 6am starts aren't too hard once you get used to them!

What about you? How did you feel on your first time at the gym? Or is this just me?

Lots of Love
Chubby Princess
xxx